running

'running, running as fast as we can

do you think you'll make it?

do you think we'll make it?

we're running as fast as we can

so we don't get separated'



i'm at that point in the race where i'd like to sit down and cry because i know i won't get to the end i wanted. last year i'm pretty sure i remember telling waffle i was probably making a huge mistake but i didn't really care. i wish i had now. part of me wishes i had never met him, part of me hopes he comes back, part of me thinks he never will, and part of me wonders how different i'd be if he hadn't been part of my life. june 2, 2009 was the critical point. after that, there was no going back.



waffle and i were going to the no doubt concert that night and he text me. 'get me a ticket' he text me his credit card information and was willing to pay $80 for a lawn seat if he would be with me. lawn seats were $10 the night before. when we got to the ampitheater it was pouring like it only pours in florida. he was already there. we got soaked to the skin and the people next to us were sliding down the muddy hill on garbage bags. it was the most fun i've had at a concert.

he held my hand. he wrapped his arms around my waist. we drank beer in the rain and sang along to every song they played. while no doubt played running i was falling. i was in over my head. that was where i fell in love.

after the concert ended we all walked out to the parking lot. he was parked on the other side of the ampitheater. he was holding my hand.

and neither of us wanted to let go.