i wish i could hate. he hasn't responded to anything all day. if he doesn't respond, then he has the control. whatever. i know tomorrow he'll tell all of his friends i'm crazy and it's all my fault. i'm needy i'm sure. i just wanted to go out with him. i just wanted some time with him and not with him and all of his friends. now i don't know what to say. i didn't think i was asking much. i feel like all of the air has been sucked out of my lungs. i want to get in bed and stay there for a week. this is so hard. i trusted him. he asked me to trust him and i did. i was comfortable with him and that had never happened before. i got butterflies when he kissed me and nothing could upset me when i was lying in bed with him. now i just feel completely abandoned. i loved going to get lunch with him. i loved just watching tv with him. but he "can't do this anymore" and i'm crushed.