fall

fall is normally my favorite time of year. this year, it's a little rough for me. i don't want to deal with the holidays this year. i don't really want to go out. i make myself though, because i know i need to. i have fun while i'm out but...

miss deborah suggested i start dancing 4 days a week. i like that i can't think about anything but ballet when i'm there. it might be a good idea for me. the last week has been a nightmare for me. i'm doing some pretty amazing things every day but something's missing.

the leaves were already changing when we were in ohio. my cousin said there was an inch of snow on her car this morning. it's finally getting cool here. i think after i'm done with school and post doc i need to go somewhere that's not too cold but has seasons. i love seeing the leaves change. i also love going to the beach and just sitting when it's a little cooler out. might limit me when i go to find a job, at least geographically, but i don't think i could be happy away from the water.

i feel a little lost...