i guess it doesn't matter what happened. i went to the mall yesterday and felt a lot better after a trip to the MAC counter. think i just started a new love affair... the girl there was so cool. i'll be going back when i get paid. scheduled an appointment with beatriz. i want my long hair back but for now i want all of my streaks back. i think i want her to put more of the really dark streaks in this time. i really wish i could hate him but i can't. i know i didn't do anything and he's just lost his mind but that doesn't help me much right now. ross made a comment that made me realize minimal effort on my part makes a huge difference in how people see me. thought that was pretty cool. no one ever says anything so it didn't always seem worth my while. i was 20 before anyone told me i was pretty. i don't wanna be the girl next door anymore, so i won't be.

small changes. huge results.

trim down. tone up.

lather. rinse. repeat.

add coffee and loud music and watch her go...